This week I made the decision to change. I make it all the time!
This time I'm sticking with it..... I say that all the time too!
This year has been tough. It started with regular visits to hospital to savour the last few weeks with Grandma. Then it became about helping Grandpa adjust to his new life without his wife. That was hard.
The year continued with business booming and family life getting busier and busier. A house move, new puppy and a chronic illness later we are in complete breakdown territory.
I can't remember much about May or June. I was told to stop working. Had trouble with that one! I know I relied heavily on family, friends and neighbours for school runs and childcare. Pain . . . I remember Pain.
I remember being scared if I stopped working my clients would all disappear and forget me. I also remember thinking if I stop work I might actually spontaneously combust. What on earth does a workaholic like me do without work?
I remember summer. Summer was awesome. Hard but so much fun. The kids and I made playdough and sand castles. It was the best yet.
Then came the time that work wasn't a luxury I had afforded myself but a necessity. Money grrrrr how we all despise money! So back to work I go. To earn money.
I love my job, I do. But when it's sole purpose in your life is to provide money, the love dissipates. It's harder to focus. Panic set in over September and October was a blur.
November is here and it will soon be Christmas. My worries over the business were unfounded! It's ridiculously busy and I'm ridiculously behind . . . again!
I have made the decision to take only the pictures I want to take. Only the sessions I love. Only the hours I have to give. I need to save something back for me. I will love my job again. I will!
To fill that financial void between me & happiness I have found Aloe Vera. Yes you read that right! If you want to know about it I will happily chat to you but for now that's all.
I met a girl I used to know years ago, an old friend. She introduced me to the Aloe and my chronic illness improved. It's been a slow road back with many set backs but I can honestly say it has changed my life. Meeting her again, has, changed my life. I am so grateful.
So November brings chaos and December brings even more, but this year I'm ready. I made the decision to change and I saved a bit of me back!