I am having the most emotional day! I'm struggling to focus. I can't remember what it's all for......
If I put a plank of wood on the floor in front of you that was 6 inches wide and 30ft long and offered you 20 quid to walk across it....would you do it? YES of course you would there's no risk. What's the worst that could happen you step on to carpet! If I put that plank of wood 100 storeys up across 2 buildings and offered you 20 quid to walk across it.....would you then?????? HELL NO!!!! What if I put your reason for everything, your WHY on the top of that other building.....? And that other building is on fire....? And I offered you 20 quid to go over it.....?
If you wouldn't do it then IT'S NOT YOUR REAL WHY If you even think of the money then IT'S NOT YOUR REAL WHY If you would run across that plank of wood to get your why and bring it back to you then it is your real WHY.
Today I figured out my WHY. My reason for working like I work and for feeling the need to show everyone what I am doing constantly, in the hope they will feel it too.
Here it is.
I want to be able to give our children all the opportunities they deserve and more. To give them the best start I possibly can. It's a tough old world we are bringing our children up into. Times are crazy and watching the news is scary. I need to make sure my children enjoy every second of their youth in ignorant bliss of what awaits them as they are forced to make their way in our broken society.
I want to make our lives how we want them to be. For years we have just had to manage with what we had. Borrowing money, going without and being generally unsatisfied and unfulfilled.
Today I was asked to think back to when we were most happy. Our most happiest time.
I realised I don't have to think BACK. We are there now.
For once in our married lives we are not looking at our situation desperately wondering how to move on and up.
For once we can see HOW to get where we want to be.
For once we are sure our children will be happy and we are the ones that provided it.
For once we can dare to dream and plan, knowing we will achieve.
For once we have hope.
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